Connor Ryan Murphy

Connor Ryan Murphy

Due: October 5, 2013

Born: September 25, 2013

7 lbs 3 oz

20 1/2 inches 

Perfect in every way. 

Birth Story

This is a long and most likely boring story to anybody besides Ryan and I but I wanted to write it down for my own record and so I can remember this perfect day. It was the most incredible experience I have ever had. The best day of my life.

On Tuesday September 24th around 7 pm I started having contractions. The entire day before I was having contractions but they stopped when I went to bed so I decided I would make dinner and rest because I figured it was just braxton hicks and they would eventually go away. I kept contracting that night and went to bed around midnight thinking they would stop. I woke up at 2am with regular contractions so I got up and started timing them in the living room. They were getting closer together and more intense. I kept telling myself it was false labor and they would stop.  But they didn't. I was putting off waking Ryan up because my biggest fear in that moment was going to the hospital and being sent home for not being in labor. I called the hospital before waking Ryan up to see if they wanted me to come in. I finally woke Ryan up at 4:30 and told him we needed to go to the hospital. It was then that I burst into tears because I was scared they would just send us home. Ryan reassured me that it would be fine if they did and we should just get checked out. We took our time getting out the door because I didn't want to go. I made Ryan shower while I finished packing my bags. We finally left and checked into the hospital around 5:30am. 

I got checked in and kept telling the nurses that I was sorry if I wasn't in labor. They had me change and hooked me up to all the monitors. Sure enough I was having contractions but they didn't know if I was in labor yet. When they finally checked my cervix my heart sank. I was at a 3 and 90% effaced (exactly what I was at my doctors appointment the day before). They said because my contractions were so regular they would keep me for awhile and see what happens. They checked me an hour later and I was at a 4 and 100% effaced! It was labor and I was there to stay. 

The contractions were getting more intense so they gave me IV drugs which were great and I was able to sleep for awhile. By 10 doctor Klingler came in and broke my water to get things moving because I was still at a 4. That very next contraction after he broke my water was the REAL deal! They were so bad that I was crying and borderline screaming through each one. They got an epidural in me soon after. Best feeling ever! I was able to sleep again for a couple hours. Around noon the doctor came in to check me and shocked all of us when he said I was completely dilated and could start pushing. So in 2 hours time I went for a 4 to a 10. There was no way I could have done this without an epidural because watching the monitors my contractions were right on top of each other without giving my body any breaks. 

My two nurses, Megan and Lori, were amazing! I loved them and was so happy that they were my nurses for our entire hospital stay. Anyway they taught me how to push and we pushed for about an hour. Connor was still so high up that they decided to let me rest and have the contractions do all the work. After about an hour and a half of laboring down we started pushing again for almost another hour. The nurses asked if i wanted a mirror and I agreed. It would the most amazing thing to actually watch everything happen.

The doctor finally came in to prepare for delivery. I pushed a couple times with the doctor and he was finally out! I didn't think I would cry but it was so overwhelming especially when they put him in my arms. He was perfect. Even with his extreme cone head and giant bruise on the back of his head. Ryan cut the cord and they whisked him away to clean him up and check him out. He is a beautiful and healthy little boy and we are beyond blessed to have him.

Giving birth was the most incredible experience I have ever had. It really is amazing how the body works and automatically knows exactly what to do. We love our little boy more than anything and can't believe we are actually parents. He is such a good baby and hardly cries. We are so lucky to have him. We love you Connor. 

Maternity Photo Shoot

A couple weeks ago we had the opportunity to spend the weekend in Cody with Ryan's family. I asked Ryan's mother if she would do some maternity photos for us while we were there. Here are a few of my favorites. Sonya did an amazing job and we had so much fun being able to spend time with her while we did this photo shoot. Thanks again Sonya for doing these for me. They turned out great! 

I am 35 weeks pregnant in these pictures. 

The Button

I just need to point out that at 28 weeks I thought my belly button was going to pop out any day. I was wrong. Its still holding out strong! Doesn't want to pop and I don't think it will by the time baby is born. It still looks super weird and not normal but at least it doesn't look like I have a nipple coming out the middle of my belly. Hang in there button.. You can do this. 

Almost Done

Today I am 36 weeks and 3 days! I just got back from my doctors appointment and I am almost 3 cm dilated and 75% thinned out! The doctor said there's is a good chance I won't make it to my due date. Let's hope! 

The Truth About Pregnancy

Pregnancy was great! Until I hit my third trimester. I felt great and loved being pregnant but its not all fun and games anymore. Growing a human is hard. Here is a list of the ugly truths about being pregnant. 

Warning: no holding back in this post. The truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth. And a little TMI.. 

• Sleeping is no longer enjoyable. I wake up about 5 times every night either needing to use the bathroom or waking up from heartburn. I am overwhelmingly uncomfortable and toss and turn all night. Sleep, ha I have forgotten what that is. 

• What is sex? Need I say more.. 

• Shaving = one big nightmare. 

• I can't breath. This boy is so high up in my ribs that they hurt constantly, making breathing a chore. 

• My gallbladder has been messed up because it is so squished. This also causes really terrible pain throughout the entire day and night. 

• Potty breaks every 30 minutes to an hour is not as fun as it sounds. Really, its not fun. 

• Swelling. Well at least my wedding ring actually fits now. 

• Heartburn. Like I mentioned before, I wake up every night with heartburn sometimes more than once in the night. I have downed 2 bottles of tums these last two months. Awesome. My favorite flavor is banana. 

• Cravings. A mean and awful joke. Cruel just cruel. 

• Stretch marks. No matter how much cocoa butter lotion you lather on, there is no way to prevent the ugly beasts. 

• Pressure. Why is a dinosaur stepping on my uterus from the inside? Its just not fair. 

• Pregnancy brain. Yeah... Forgot what I was going to say about that one. 

• I'm so tired. Really tired. Oh and did I mention I can't sleep? 

• Strangers. Stop talking to me! 

• Oh and my personal favorite.. Hemorrhoids. Did you know those actually happen? I didn't. Oh so fun. 

• Getting off the couch. Couch, quick sand pit.. Pretty much the same thing. 

• Mood swings. I'm a beast. 

• Getting dressed. Nothing fits. Wish I could wear sweats to work. 

I honestly was not expecting all these things to happen. I thought being pregnant would be all about the glow and that it would be easy going. Boy was I wrong! But really with all the discomfort and not so fun things about being pregnant set aside I have not forgotten how blessed I am to have my little boy with me and I truly am grateful that I get the chance to become a mom. Here are the things that make it all worth it. 

• Feeling him move. He does this thing where he sticks his butt all the way out on the left side of my belly. It makes my belly completely lopsided and makes me have to pee every time but its so funny to see. Who knew you could love someone's butt as much as I love his tiny bum. 

• Hiccups. He gets them everyday! His record his 5 different times in one day. He doesn't really kick much so I let people feel him hiccup when they ask to feel him move. He is more of a full body roller than a kicker. But since you can feel his hiccups that's what everyone gets to feel. 

• Hearing his heartbeat. My favorite part about going to my doc appointments. 

• Knowing I will get to hold him in 5 short weeks. I cant wait to meet this little one and become a mom. 

• When Ryan gets to feel him move. Ryan is the only one who has felt how crazy he gets in there. It's like he is having his own dance party in there, moving his entire body from one side of my belly to the other. He also likes to stick his feet out and I can feel his little foot from the outside. It's incredible. 

Yes, growing a human is hard but its also amazing. Every movement, every hiccup is a reminder that there is a plan for us on this earth and that this little angel has been sent to me for a very special reason. I can't wait to meet him and love him so much already. The final countdown has begun! 

Update: 26 Weeks

I don't have any pictures this time but I just wanted to share some highlights.

* I feel so much movement! This guy is the biggest kicker especially when I am trying to sleep. I love it though and I especially love seeing my belly move. Every time it makes me feel so blessed and I feel so much love for this little human growing inside of me. I can't wait to meet him.

* I am one week away from being in the third trimester! Yay! I can't believe how fast things are moving. Ryan and I were talking the other night and realized we only have 14 weeks left. How crazy is that? 

* Maybe not a highlight but something new that is happening. The child found my ribs... Seriously the most uncomfortable feeling ever but I still I love feeling him move even if it does hurt a little..

* Next week is my glucose test. The dreaded appointment that every pregnant woman warns you about. I am not too concerned about drinking it I am more concerned about the whooping cough shot they are going to give me at that appointment too. I don't mind getting my blood drawn but I hate shots.. Do what I gotta do.

* I think my belly button is going to pop out soon. I don't want that to happen! It will look like I have a nipple sticking out of my belly.. Too bad they don't make belly button bras. I would wear one! 

* Sleeping sucks. That is all. 

Well, we are just chugging along and will have a baby in no time. We are so excited and can't wait to meet out little guy.

HUGE

I just got home from the weirdest doctors appointment yet... First of all I signed a paper that stated that I HAVE to see all the doctors in the office before I see the same one again. How is it that I get the same doctor every time and it happens to be the one I dislike most!? At my appointment today the doc measured my belly at least three times. He then starts telling me how big I am. He said I was huge and big over and over. Thanks doc for the confidence boost. Apparently it can be a concern for a small person like me to measure bigger then what I'm supposed to so he gave me an ultrasound. He said something about the possibility of a cyst being on the uterus and that's why it would measure so big. Well he looked and looked and everything is normal. He says to me, "I guess we just have to accept the fact that your just big.." Really! Is it that big of a deal? I'm wondering if he even considered the fact that my due date has been swapped around every time I go in and that it is set two weeks later than it should be based on when I ovulated.. Maybe I am "huge" because I really am further along than they predicted.. Anyway I'm basically a huge prego lady.. The story doesn't end here it gets better. After confirming that I'm a giant the doc spent 5 minutes looking in between my sons legs. He asked me if I knew what it was and I told him a boy. He said, "Umm I'm not so sure..." He kept looking and said I think its a boy.. He then said (and I quote!), "No offensive but he is really small for a boy." Are you kidding me! So the doctor first tells me how big I am then he tells me my son has a tiny penis. Well thanks doc.. He is only 23 weeks give him a break for crying out loud. Needless to say I left my appointment feeling horrible because my belly is too big and my son might not be a son. Just what I needed to hear... 

On the bright side I got to see my baby because of the ultrasound. That made my day all in itself. 

I Know What I Like

The past couple days I have been on the search for crib bedding. Turns out I hate everything! I don't like the stupid bedding with the animals all over it or letters. They either look to "baby" or too overdone. I like simple. My favorite color happens to be grey so that says a lot all by itself. I want my baby's room to be simple and modern. But the idea of.... "there has to be a theme!" keeps crossing my mind. I got this cute plush fox from my work so I decided maybe a fox theme nursery would be cute. Here is what I'm thinking... 

This is the fox I got for baby boy. 

I found simple grey bedding. That I actually like for the most part. 

The crib I got is white but I'm thinking about painting it... Maybe red or a dark greyish color..

I want to keep it modern feeling by using pillows and blankets with fox silhouettes and not a lot of detail. I could even make my own! 

And my favorite part.. Vintage fox prints! I want to make a feature wall behind the crib with loads of fox prints and maybe baby's name in big letters. For the rest of the room I hope to find little fox pieces that will add to the overall theme. I like the idea of having a mix of old and new fox things. I don't want a mix of any other creatures just foxes. For colors I will stick with greys, reds, orange and woody colors. 

 I don't know. What do you think? Is a fox nursery a cute idea??? 

And would you paint the crib? 

22 Weeks and Family Time

22 weeks down! This week had some highlights!

Ryan's sister Amber got to feel baby move.

I tried the whole playing music to your belly thing and my boy kicked so hard my phone flew into the air and off my belly. I'm assuming he didn't like the music! 

Ryan felt more baby movements. And said to me "What is that!?" That is our baby dear :) 

Two strangers have noticed and said something about me being prego. That means I look pregnant and not fat anymore! 

I seriously love being pregnant and looking pregnant. Baby moves all the time and its my favorite. Even when I see my belly move and its a little alien like... I still love it! 

Wisconsin Trip

50 hours riding in the car! I deserve an award! This past week Ryan and I drove to Wisconsin with Ryan's family to see his Grandma Murphy. Let me explain how I reached 50 hours! We first drove 6 hours to Cody where Ryan's mom and dad live. We were there two days to be at Alex's graduation and get ready for our very long drive. We left early Sunday and started the trek to Wisconsin. I rode with Ryan's sister Amber on the way down. We took her car because we left her there for the summer. I actually took the night shift for driving starting at 8pm until 5:30am the next morning! Let's just say nobody should ever have to do that especially when pregnant! Ryan was actually driving the other car so we talked on the phone to keep each other awake. After a little over 18 hours we finally reached our destination and I spent the rest of the day sleeping. We had fun in Wisconsin. I love Ryan's Grandmother and his 2 great aunts that take care of her. The weather was pretty crappy so we lazed about everyday which is my specialty. I got to do a little shopping and a lot of eating. Ryan's great aunts are so fun to be around. Auntie Colleen and Auntie Kathy are the best and I love them both as well as Ryan's cute Grandma. They make me feel like I have always been a part of the family. And I even got a family secret recipe. Auntie Colleen named our baby and kept calling him Michael. That was Ryan's Grandpa's name and it so happens to be my dad and grandpa's names as well. We are still thinking about names though and wont have his name completely picked out until he is born but Michael might actually work for a middle name. We will see :) anyway the trip was a good one and I enjoyed it. Then it was time to drive home. We ended up pulling a trailer with some of grandpa's things in it so that added time to our trip because we couldn't drive as fast. Ryan got the night shift again and I stayed up with him to keep him awake. We finally got back to Cody. Ryan and I spent about 3 hours resting then got back in our car and drove the 6 hours home. Lots of sitting in the car and driving! Not the best thing for prego me.. It was fun to spend a week with family and get to know Ryan's sweet grandma better. The long road trip was worth it in the end. 

It's a BOY!

We are officially having a baby boy! I still can't believe it because I had convinced myself it would be a girl. Ryan and I went to the doctor on Friday and I knew it was a boy before the tech even said anything. I practically screamed, "It's a boy!" And of course Ryan just sat back and said, "I told ya so." He always HAS to be right. We are both so excited and can't wait to meet our little guy. We love him all ready! They even moved the due date up by a couple days. So end of September/ early October we will meet our baby boy. 

The ultrasound was so much fun. We got to look at all our baby's parts for about 30 minutes. He was so cute kicking his LONG legs and having the hiccups. The tech said that his legs are 30% longer than most babies at 20 weeks so he is definitely Ryan's boy. The only thing that isn't "normal" is they saw a black hole which they think is his gallbladder but they don't usually see that on an ultrasound so they aren't completely sure what it is. They told us not to worry and that it isn't anything serious. I sure hope it stays in the not serious category. They will check up on it at about 32 weeks just to make sure. Other than that baby boy is healthy and happy wiggling around in my belly. I love feeling him move and I feel him all the time now. I even saw my belly move when he kicked the other morning. His movements are full on kicks now and not just flutters. Makes sense with his extra long legs! Well here are some pictures of our boy!

This is the "It's a boy" pic. His little boy part may look strange but it is just the cord. He is perfectly normal :) 

The tech tried so hard to get us a good 3D pic but he was so wiggly she had to chase him around which distorted the picture. But this one is pretty good. His little hand touching his face is so adorable. I love it. 

And here is our baby's face. A little like a skeleton but I can tell he is cute! 

Ryan was my waiting buddy. We were there for over an hour! And waited lots.  He was a champ and loved seeing our baby. He asked the tech so many questions about him the entire ultrasound. He is thrilled to have a son! 

Finally, here I am at 20 weeks! I love being pregnant and looking pregnant. Its getting harder to find things to wear so I may need to buy some maternity clothes soon. I can't help but touch my belly all the time! Is that normal? I still can't believe I am actually prego and that I have a baby boy in there. I am looking forward to the next 20 weeks! Half way there until we get to meet our boy! 

Weeks 18 and 19

18 Weeks. 

People are starting to notice I'm pregnant now and not just fat! 

19 Weeks

This has been the best week so far because Ryan felt the baby move! I have been able to feel baby from the outside for about a week but every time I tried to get Ryan to feel the baby would stop. But last night Ryan was able to feel baby because this child was going crazy! I loved it because now Ryan can be a part of this pregnancy now too. It is starting to keep me up at night. I am having a harder time going to sleep and I can't make myself sleep in which is so unusual for me. I take naps to make up for it though. Ryan and I are counting down the days a until Friday (4 days!) Because then we will know what baby is. We both want a boy but these are our predictions. 

Ryan: Boy

Me: Girl

I guess we will just have to wait and see. I also can't wait to see how big and different baby looks from our first ultrasound. It will actually be a baby this time instead of a pill big. We are so excited! The big announcement will be posted soon! 

Quilt for Baby

I made my very first quilt just for baby. It is a simple strip/tie quilt so it was pretty easy. It is made out of flannel and has batting inside to make it extra cozy. I can't wait to wrap my little one up in it. 

I am even thinking about making another one once I know what baby is so it doesn't have to be gender neutral. 

17 Weeks 3 Days

I have reached 17 weeks! I feel like this pregnancy is going by so fast. I went to the doctor on Friday and we finally got to schedule when we find out what we are having! Only 3 more weeks of waiting.

I hate our Laramie maternity system. Let me just tell you about it so you can understand why it sucks so bad. They have 5 different doctors here and when I went for my first appointment they made me sign a paper that says I will see all 5 doctors before I get to choose who I see for the rest of my pregnancy. Well that is not the problem. I don't mind seeing all the doctors but the thing is, even if you choose what doctor you see there is no guarantee that they will be the one to deliver your baby. The doctor that is on call the day you deliver is the one who delivers your baby and it may not be the doctor you want. How stupid is that! The other thing that bothers me is that the doctors don't communicate with each other so at every appointment you have to reexplain anything that they need to know. They also don't get to know you so you pretty much have a stranger touching and prodding at you for every appointment. I just don't like it and wish I could choose my doctor but I don't have a choice so it will be a mystery who delivers my baby until that day comes. 

99.9%

This morning as I was laying in bed taking a "mental health" day and Pinteresting I felt it! This time I am 99.9% sure that I felt my baby move. For the past couple weeks I think I have been feeling little flutters but this time it was a flutter on steroids and not just one but 6 or 7. It was the coolest thing ever! Everyday I am more and more excited about being pregnant. Next up, find out what we are having! 

Oh and here is the 16 week photo I promised. 

It's Not Always Easy

I have been feeling like I need to share our story about not being able to get pregnant right away. Now that I am pregnant I feel so open about our journey and what I was feeling as the years went by with no child. I mainly feel the need to share because I have many friends that are going through the same thing and friends that have gone through this as well. It's not easy for everyone to get pregnant. It doesn't happen the month you get off the pill for everyone. So I am going to share my story, hopefully to inspire those who are struggling with what I struggled with.

In October of 2011, Ryan and I decided that it was time to start trying for a family. I was worried from the beginning because I never had regular periods and was worried that I may not be able to get pregnant on my own. This was my secret demon that taunted me as the months went by. After I stopped taking my birth control I didn't have a period on my own for almost a year. That was scary to me. To think something is wrong with you and that your body isn't working the way it was meant to work. We finally had a doctor who told us that it was unhealthy to go so long without having a period so she gave me a months worth of birth control to make me have a period. After I had that "induced" period I had a couple on my own, not regular still but on my own which was progress. 

During this time of waiting and trying I never talked about what I was feeling or thinking about. Ryan didn't even know how hard this was on me until after we found out I was pregnant. I just didn't want to worry him or make him feel bad about the things that were bothering me. I knew early on that I wanted to be a mother and I even tried to convince Ryan to start trying as soon as we got married. He wanted to get through school and wanted me to get through school too so we agreed to wait. Which I am grateful for now because I know  that now the time is right for us. Anyway, as the months went on and still no baby I started to really get depressed and down about it. I couldn't understand why it was so easy for some mothers to get pregnant and why it was hard for me. I couldn't understand why my body didn't work the way it was supposed to and that made me angry. I took a couple pregnancy tests during this time and all came back negative. Again, I didn't tell Ryan when I took a test because I didn't want it to get him down either. I could also tell as the we hit the one year mark of  "trying" he was getting really baby hungry. I felt like I was disappointing him by not being able to give him a child. I mostly just felt sorry for myself. 

There was one night that I couldn't sleep so I went out and sat on the couch. A thought came into my mind that I hadn't read my Patriarchal Blessing in a long time, so long that I couldn't remember what it said. So I dug around in Ryan's office until I found it. I was shocked when I read it because it promised me that when the time was right and when I was ready I would become a mother. From that moment on I knew that I couldn't dwell in my sorrow and I couldn't focus on what I couldn't have anymore but rather what I could do. So from then on instead of praying every night for Heavenly Father to give me a baby I prayed for opportunities to serve. I promised that if the opportunities were presented to me then I would take them and serve and forget about myself and only focus on others. Not too long after I got my calling in the church. My calling is to make baby blankets and take them to the new mothers in the ward. It is such a rewarding calling and I get to hold all the cute newborn babies. It wasn't until I lost myself in service that it happened.

According to the doctor I conceived on or around January 12, 2013 (which puts us at a year and close to 3 months trying for a baby). At the being of February I started to feel weird. I was so tired the most tired I have ever felt in my life, I felt nauseous and my breast got twice the size and hurt like crazy. I kept telling Ryan how crappy I felt and he would tell me to take a pregnancy test. I couldn't bring myself to take another test. I just couldn't bare the disappointment. I was in denial for weeks before I finally told myself that if I didn't feel better in another week then I would take a test. The day came (a couple days after Valentines Day) that I decided to take the test. I waited until Ryan had left for work and I was home alone. I told myself before hand that I would take it and wouldn't look at it until the 3 minutes were up. I took the test and set it on the counter. I didn't even get the chance to look away, the two pink lines appeared immediately! I couldn't believe it. All that I have ever wanted and waited for was finally happening. I was glad that I was alone because I crumpled up on the bathroom floor sobbing and laughing at the same time. I'm sure if Ryan had been there I would have just completely embarrassed myself. I remember I just kept saying was thank you over and over again. It was the happiest moment of my life. 

I then had to hurry and get ready for class and then head to work. I came home for lunch and was hoping that Ryan wouldn't be home because I knew I would spill the beans and I wanted to wait until that night to tell him. Well, he was home and I spilled the beans. I couldn't contain myself. Ryan being Ryan started to tell me what I had to stop doing like drinking Mountain Dew and instructed me to take a prenatal right away. He is so good about making me do what I need to for a healthy baby and pregnancy. But I could tell he was happy and freaking out but happy. 

Because I had waited so long and this being my first pregnancy I worried everyday about miscarriage and things going wrong. I couldn't wait to get past the 13 week mark. I still worry at times but once I start to worry I am filled with a peaceful feeling and I know that this is our time and that we have been given one of the greatest blessings. I am so grateful everyday to be given this chance to bring a child into this world. I know that everything will be ok in the end and I am so excited for every that comes with being pregnant. 

That is my story. It's hard to wait for so long but when it finally happens it is worth the wait. My advice to anyone going through the same thing is to stay positive, serve and talk about it. I feel like it would have been easier on me if I just talked to someone about it. Also, trust in Heavenly Father. He has a plan for each of us and knows when the right time for certain things are. So have faith and know that it will happen when it is meant to happen. Even if it means waiting for months or years. It will happen. 

16 Weeks

I don't have a picture for this week yet because I haven't look cute enough! But I will post one later this week. I do have some complaining to do though! Even though I am trying to love everything about being pregnant I have been so uncomfortable this week which makes it hard to love being pregnant. Starting last week I have been having back pain. Mainly when I lay down to go to bed. Who gets back pains when they  lay down? I just thought that was weird but the body pillow my friend gave me has been helping. The other thing that started maybe 3 days ago is my belly hurts! I mean it feels like someone is pulling and stretching my belly out. It is so uncomfortable and again I feel it most when I go to bed. I guess that feeling is just the baby growing and making room for himself but still could you be a little gentler please! But really, even though things have been uncomfortable I feel so blessed to be pregnant and to be able to have my very own baby. I also think I might be starting to feel baby move. I am so unsure though but hopefully the next couple weeks I will really be able to tell when it is the baby and not just gas. Some things I am looking forward to this week is my doctors appointment on Friday. I love being able to hear the heartbeat because it makes it so real for me. Then our next appointment we will be finding out what we are having! I am so excited. I will be 21 weeks then so I am going to try and convince the doctor to let me come in early so I don't have to wait another 4 weeks! We will see. 

P.S. I am still hoping for a boy.. What's your guess? 

15 Weeks

Just thought I should start posting belly pics so we can all see baby grow! I'm so excited to be showing because now I really feel pregnant. Here's to being 15 weeks! 

Baby Murphy

INTRODUCING BABY MURPHY

I feel it is probably about time I posted about our tiny nugget! Here "he" is! For my own records I want to keep a little pregnancy blog so for the next couple months this blog will be all about me and baby! And maybe a tiny bit about Ryan..

It's kind of ironic that the last post I posted was me finally expressing my feelings about not being able to get pregnant. Turns out, I was pregnant when I wrote that post! Crazy how things work out. Ryan and I really feel blessed and can't wait to become parents and we are so grateful to be given the chance.  As for me, I am enjoying every minute of pregnancy including the not so fun parts.

13 WEEKS

As of today I am 13 weeks but will be 14 weeks on Saturday. Here are some highlights and low-lights about being pregnant so far.

• This week has been the best so far because I don't feel sick anymore! The first couple  months I was really sick and it wasn't fun so I am so happy to finally be past that. (Hopefully I am not jinksing myself...) 
• I am loving my "ladies" right now! That was the first sign that made me think I was pregnant because they got huge! And I am loving it.
• I  have never ever had a problem with acne growing up, just the occasional zit here and there. But this morning I woke up with the ring of fire going from one ear, across my forehead and to the other ear! How did this even happen? Besides the fact that I have had to feel crappy for months, I'm getting fat and I'm uncomfortable, I also have to deal with looking like a sad little middle school girl in her awkward years. At least this ring of fire is close to my hairline so I can hide it easily. 
• I am worried I am going to have a lop sided belly! Even early on when I lay down I can feel my tiny hard bump low on my belly and it has always been completely on the left side and squishy on the right. I guess this kid just likes to hang out over there. And as I have gotten bigger it is still the same, baby on the left side of my belly. Hopefully he will run out of room and move over so I don't look like a scary middle school awkward lop sided prego lady! 
• I ordered some belly bands this week because my jeans are too tight. The first thing when I get to class and sit down is unbutton my jeans because it is so uncomfortable. So I can't wait to get these bands so I can wear unbuttoned pants all day.
• Ryan and I refer to this baby as "he." I am hoping for a boy and I think Ryan is too so we just call baby a he. Sorry if your a girl baby.. we will still be happy either way! 
• We are so excited to welcome our baby in October! Keep checking in for some more updates about me and this pregnancy! 

It's A New Year

Goodbye 2012 and Welcome 2013!

I feel that I am a very quite person when it comes to my personal life. I don't like people knowing what is going on and I really like to keep things private. But today I am going to share a teeny bit of my personal life because I want this to be the best year yet.

Here's the dirt.

 Ryan and I have been married for three years now! It is so crazy how time flies and I have truly loved every moment of being married to Ryan. For almost a year and a half I have been off the pill and haven't been able to get pregnant. This is something I have really struggle with and something I have kept to myself. I don't want to talk about it and I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me. I just want to move on. So that's it, a tiny bit of what is going on in my life currently. The reason I bring it up is because I am sick of waiting, I am sick of feeling sorry for myself and I don't want to dwell on this anymore. So I am going to change that this year.

 I normally feel that New Year's resolutions are overrated and a waste of time. I mean who really accomplishes their New Year's goals anyway?? But because I am too focused on what I can't control I want to start focusing on what I can control in my life. So that is what this year is going to be about for me. Focusing on the things I can control and becoming a better person. Here are my goals.

1. I want to get fit and work out so that I can feel good about my physical self.

2. I want to eat healthier, no more sweets or fast food... and possibly the Dew. Possibly.

3. I want to make dinner every night and fulfill my wifely duties.

4. I want to save $$$

5. I want to focus and look for opportunities to serve and help others. 

6. I want to keep a clean home.

7. I want to read the entire Book of Mormon.

8. I want to strengthen my testimony.

9. I want to love my husband even when he irritates me or makes me mad. I want to work on showing him daily that I love him.

10. And I want to open up and share my feelings, I want to be able to talk about what is going on in my life, especially to Ryan because I often keep things quite from him too. I want to love my whole self and look forward to what the future has in store for me.

I feel good about this new year and I can't wait to see what it has in store for me. Here is to fulfilling my New Year's Resolutions!! 

Virtual Tour

I know a lot of people have been asking to see pictures of where I am currently living. So here they are.

My Home.

Kitchen

 Living room

My Bedroom & Office

We also have a second bedroom that is Ryan's office and also Kyle's room while he is staying with us. I love this place because I can walk to school from here and it is on the top floor of a house which is much better than an apartment. It will do for now.