Sometimes, well most times, I feel like there is this crazy little meany inside of me that just wants to rip people to shreds. I get super annoyed way too easily and just plain irritated. I find myself rolling my eyes at teachers and classmates because of their stupidity and making "ugh" noises way too often. It's kind of funny because most people would classify me as being a shy and quiet person. I guess I am that way so I don't end up punching someone in the throat. I think that is why I love spending so much time alone because then there is no chance of someone bugging me.
I feel bad for Ryan because he is on the receiving end of my madness but somehow he still loves me. I am so grateful that I have Ryan to balance me out. He makes me laugh and "purposely" tries to get on my nerves just so I will laugh about it. Lately, I haven't been feeling as angry. (Please don't get scared of my crazy inner-self :) I really only hate annoying people.) Anyway, I haven't been feeling as angry which I think is because of Ryan and the crazy pill... I feel like lately we are "newly weds" again and always want to be in each others company. Isn't is crazy that we will have been married for 3 years in December! I am actually really happy with where we are in our lives. We love our new apartment and Laramie isn't at all that bad. Which is a good thing because there is a huge chance we might be here an extra 2 years... I am grateful for Ryan. If it wasn't for him I don't think I would be in school or really doing anything great with my life. He inspires me to be better which includes keeping the house clean and making dinner every night lol. I want to be a good wife for him so I am trying my best to do the things that I don't like doing. And trying my best to be a happy person and not a scary one.
