Baby Murphy

INTRODUCING BABY MURPHY

I feel it is probably about time I posted about our tiny nugget! Here "he" is! For my own records I want to keep a little pregnancy blog so for the next couple months this blog will be all about me and baby! And maybe a tiny bit about Ryan..

It's kind of ironic that the last post I posted was me finally expressing my feelings about not being able to get pregnant. Turns out, I was pregnant when I wrote that post! Crazy how things work out. Ryan and I really feel blessed and can't wait to become parents and we are so grateful to be given the chance.  As for me, I am enjoying every minute of pregnancy including the not so fun parts.

13 WEEKS

As of today I am 13 weeks but will be 14 weeks on Saturday. Here are some highlights and low-lights about being pregnant so far.

• This week has been the best so far because I don't feel sick anymore! The first couple  months I was really sick and it wasn't fun so I am so happy to finally be past that. (Hopefully I am not jinksing myself...) 
• I am loving my "ladies" right now! That was the first sign that made me think I was pregnant because they got huge! And I am loving it.
• I  have never ever had a problem with acne growing up, just the occasional zit here and there. But this morning I woke up with the ring of fire going from one ear, across my forehead and to the other ear! How did this even happen? Besides the fact that I have had to feel crappy for months, I'm getting fat and I'm uncomfortable, I also have to deal with looking like a sad little middle school girl in her awkward years. At least this ring of fire is close to my hairline so I can hide it easily. 
• I am worried I am going to have a lop sided belly! Even early on when I lay down I can feel my tiny hard bump low on my belly and it has always been completely on the left side and squishy on the right. I guess this kid just likes to hang out over there. And as I have gotten bigger it is still the same, baby on the left side of my belly. Hopefully he will run out of room and move over so I don't look like a scary middle school awkward lop sided prego lady! 
• I ordered some belly bands this week because my jeans are too tight. The first thing when I get to class and sit down is unbutton my jeans because it is so uncomfortable. So I can't wait to get these bands so I can wear unbuttoned pants all day.
• Ryan and I refer to this baby as "he." I am hoping for a boy and I think Ryan is too so we just call baby a he. Sorry if your a girl baby.. we will still be happy either way! 
• We are so excited to welcome our baby in October! Keep checking in for some more updates about me and this pregnancy! 

It's A New Year

Goodbye 2012 and Welcome 2013!

I feel that I am a very quite person when it comes to my personal life. I don't like people knowing what is going on and I really like to keep things private. But today I am going to share a teeny bit of my personal life because I want this to be the best year yet.

Here's the dirt.

 Ryan and I have been married for three years now! It is so crazy how time flies and I have truly loved every moment of being married to Ryan. For almost a year and a half I have been off the pill and haven't been able to get pregnant. This is something I have really struggle with and something I have kept to myself. I don't want to talk about it and I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me. I just want to move on. So that's it, a tiny bit of what is going on in my life currently. The reason I bring it up is because I am sick of waiting, I am sick of feeling sorry for myself and I don't want to dwell on this anymore. So I am going to change that this year.

 I normally feel that New Year's resolutions are overrated and a waste of time. I mean who really accomplishes their New Year's goals anyway?? But because I am too focused on what I can't control I want to start focusing on what I can control in my life. So that is what this year is going to be about for me. Focusing on the things I can control and becoming a better person. Here are my goals.

1. I want to get fit and work out so that I can feel good about my physical self.

2. I want to eat healthier, no more sweets or fast food... and possibly the Dew. Possibly.

3. I want to make dinner every night and fulfill my wifely duties.

4. I want to save $$$

5. I want to focus and look for opportunities to serve and help others. 

6. I want to keep a clean home.

7. I want to read the entire Book of Mormon.

8. I want to strengthen my testimony.

9. I want to love my husband even when he irritates me or makes me mad. I want to work on showing him daily that I love him.

10. And I want to open up and share my feelings, I want to be able to talk about what is going on in my life, especially to Ryan because I often keep things quite from him too. I want to love my whole self and look forward to what the future has in store for me.

I feel good about this new year and I can't wait to see what it has in store for me. Here is to fulfilling my New Year's Resolutions!! 

Virtual Tour

I know a lot of people have been asking to see pictures of where I am currently living. So here they are.

My Home.

Kitchen

 Living room

My Bedroom & Office

We also have a second bedroom that is Ryan's office and also Kyle's room while he is staying with us. I love this place because I can walk to school from here and it is on the top floor of a house which is much better than an apartment. It will do for now.

Connection

Today I went to my favorite place, Bart's Flea Market! I was on a mission to find the final piece for a school project which I found by the way. Anyway Bart's is kind of a scary place. You really have to venture into the dirty, sketchy parts to find the good stuff. While searching I saw this beauty. (Reminds me of something my dad would like..)

This desk summoned me to it. I have never had a piece of furniture speak to me before, it literally gave me chills! I am in love with the old character and charm it has. I don't know why by I am dying right now just thinking about it! What is happening to me! I bet this it what a hoarder feels like every time they find something they love. Maybe I'm a hoarder..

Turns out I didn't buy it because I already have a desk and I don't have room. Too bad, I know I will be fantasizing about it for awhile... I love you weird, ugly and old but charming desk. You will be in my dreams. 

I'm Obsessed

I am absolutely in love with tiny houses! I am doing a housing report and speech on tiny houses and I want one so bad! They don't cost a lot to build and they can be less than $100 a YEAR for utilities! Hello! So affordable, so cute and so perfect. These are some of my favorites..

Are these not some of the cutest houses you have ever seen! I'm in love and want my very own teeny tiny home! If you want to know more about these tiny houses go here http://www.tumbleweedhouses.com/.

I am an angry person

Sometimes, well most times, I feel like there is this crazy little meany inside of me that just wants to rip people to shreds. I get super annoyed way too easily and just plain irritated. I find myself rolling my eyes at teachers and classmates because of their stupidity and making "ugh" noises way too often. It's kind of funny because most people would classify me as being a shy and quiet person. I guess I am that way so I don't end up punching someone in the throat. I think that is why I love spending so much time alone because then there is no chance of someone bugging me. 

I feel bad for Ryan because he is on the receiving end of my madness but somehow he still loves me. I am so grateful that I have Ryan to balance me out. He makes me laugh and "purposely" tries to get on my nerves just so I will laugh about it. Lately, I haven't been feeling as angry. (Please don't get scared of my crazy inner-self :) I really only hate annoying people.) Anyway, I haven't been feeling as angry which I think is because of Ryan and the crazy pill... I feel like lately we are "newly weds" again and always want to be in each others company. Isn't is crazy that we will have been married for 3 years in December! I am actually really happy with where we are in our lives. We love our new apartment and Laramie isn't at all that bad. Which is a good thing because there is a huge chance we might be here an extra 2 years... I am grateful for Ryan. If it wasn't for him I don't think I would be in school or really doing anything great with my life. He inspires me to be better which includes keeping the house clean and making dinner every night lol. I want to be a good wife for  him so I am trying my best to do the things that I don't like doing. And trying my best to be a happy person and not a scary one. 

TMI

WARNING: TMI

I just have to say that I have never been so happy to have my period in my life! Let me explain.. At the end of this month would have marked the 11th month since I have last had a period. For some reason I don't menstruate like I'm supposed to and this was the longest amount of time I have gone without having a period. So I was getting a little worried. But now I am RELIEVED! 

Bring on the mother of all periods!